If It Were Easy, Everyone Would Do It

This was by far the hardest post for me to write since I started this blog last summer. I didn't even know where to start, as there is so much I could talk about. When I started this blog I promised above all else to be open and honest. 

Next week I am going to have good/positive news to share, and I am MORE DETERMINED THAN EVER, so please stick with me. (I have also made some of my best recipes to date the past few days that I can't wait to share.)

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And it starts - you think you are looking better. You fit in sizes and clothes you haven't in awhile. People are starting to notice your weight loss and you ease up a bit...

"Sure I can have a hamburger for dinner one day, pizza the next, cheese at a party, christmas cookies...I am still working out it won't matter that much."

That's how it started for me in December. I knew it was a slippery slope, but I avoided the scale as "it was the holidays and all." Then I was much better in the beginning of January doing a 10-day serious detox of sorts, but that led up to a crazy weekend of a black-tie affair with great dinner and a crazy concert the next night with lots of drinks (and corresponding food). I think that weekend single handedly undid everything I had done the previous 10 days. I am not making excuses - it didn't have to - I could have approached that whole weekend differently, but I gave myself license to do whatever I wanted, as I thought I had deserved it after the detox. I was not the friend to myself that I should've been.

Ok, so now we're up to late January, and from my last post you can see that I had frustration with the whole return of the running injury. What I didn't mention in the post is that I was leaving for my first vacation alone with my husband since having kids. We went to a beautiful place with warm weather. I also gave myself license there - "it was vacation and all and I deserved a break from my routine." Sugary pool drinks every day and big dinners every night. It was a great time, but I did pay for it. I am up 4 pounds since December. Which puts me at -16 since I started keeping track.

Needless to say, recently I haven't been following my core principals that I had laid out in July/August. And I can tell you for all that "fun" I thought I was letting myself have - I was more depressed than ever about all of it especially in January. (only the vacation part was worth it for me).

I got back from vacation this weekend, and since Sunday I have been 100% dedicated to changing my life to be healthy for good. 

I am working on slowly building up running again every other day, and not pushing it too hard. I'm letting go and trusting the process as it is very hard for me not to run more. To make up for the limited running cardio, I have been religiously doing the stairmaster (and those who have been following the blog for awhile know it's not my favorite)! And let me tell you, after a few weeks off it was SO hard to get through an hour workout again. I wanted to stop about 1/4 into my stairmaster workout at 6AM this morning, but I pushed through it. And on alternate days I have been doing yoga and strength training.

MY TWO-WEEK GOAL: lose 4 pounds.

MY LONG-TERM GOAL: lose 17 pounds by the end of April.

I know the goals are aggressive, but I am really committed. I wanted to lay out a big goal to work for in public because I know I can do it. 

I am getting back to basics following my core healthy eating principles that helped me lose the original 20 pounds:

 1.Eating more natural, healthier foods

 2.Eating reasonable portions

 3.Eating well balanced meals

 4.Eating a variety of foods, with lots of vegetables.

 5.Only eating when I am hungry

Thanks for your continued support.

SONG THAT KEPT ME RUNNING THIS WEEK: Little Lion Man- Mumford and Sons

THIS WEEK'S RECIPE: Chicken Lettuce Wraps (delicious!!!!)

A friend of mine brought these to my house for a get together and I had to get the recipe. Apparently the original recipe is from Jennifer Aniston's trainer. I wanted to cook something healthy for Superbowl Sunday and this is what I made. Thanks for the great recipe Kate!

*next week's recipe will be a quick weeknight dinner.

Tips:

These took a fairly long time to make. I would recommend cutting everything in advance and then cooking separately. Also - you can make ahead and simmer on low until you are ready to eat. They make great leftovers too!

Chicken Lettuce Wraps

This picture doesn't do these justice! 

THE FILLING

2 T. peanut oil

2 t. sesame oil

24 shitake mushrooms, finely chopped

- I used a combo of shitake & gourmet mushroom blend.

2 large carrots, very finely chopped

4 scallions, very finely chopped

2 t. minced ginger

1 t. minced garlic

2 lbs. ground chicken

1/2 t. pepper

2 small cans water chestnuts, drained and finely diced

THE SAUCE

1 cup soy sauce

4 T. seasoned rice wine vinegar

4 T. orange juice

4 T. brown sugar

4 T. water

3 T. cornstarch

1 t. chili flakes

4 T. oyster sauce

THE LETTUCE CUPS

2 heads iceberg lettuce (I used leafy red romaine for a bit more nutrition)

1) For the sauce, mix all ingredients together, set aside.

2) Heat large nonstick skillet over med-high heat.  When pan is hot add peanut and sesame oils.  Saute mushrooms, carrots, scallions, ginger and garlic for 4-5 mins.

3) Add chicken and cook, stir to break up the meat.

4) When chicken is almost cooked, add pepper and sauce.  Bring to a boil, reduce heat to simmer and cook 5-6 minutes.

5) Remove pan from heat, stir in water chestnuts, spoon into lettuce cups and serve!